I am so relieved!

Eric and I went to my first ultrasound yesterday to see the baby. I was more nervous than ever! I thought for sure I was going to puke and it wasn't because of the morning sickness. I just couldn't bare another problem. As soon as the tech started, I could tell that the baby was bigger than last time and then I could see the precious heartbeat! I was so happy but not completely relieved until she told me that the heart rate was 160 beats per minute. Praise the Lord! That is a strong heart rate and while we are not completely out of the woods, our chance for miscarriage drops significantly. That rate is actually what Jack's was at around 9 weeks. Maybe another boy?

I go back in one week for my health educator appointment and then again on September 7 to see if they can hear the heartbeat on the doppler. Then I go back at 12 weeks for my regular scheduled appointments. I think at that time we will tell Jack. I can't wait! I've posted a picture below. What a cute little jelly bean!

Oh my goodness...so sick

Wow, I was praying I would get morning sickness and it is as bad or worse as it was with Jack! I can't believe I have another 6-7 weeks of this. My appointment on Monday will help remind me that all of this is worth it when I can see that heartbeat.

All I want to do is lay down and sleep! The only time I'm not sick is when I'm sleeping or eating. You would think I would be eating all the time but everything sounds sickening so it's hard to find something to eat.

I'm praying that all of this means a healthy baby is growing in there! Lord knows I didn't feel like this with the last pregnancy.

Wow what an amazing month!

I am such a terrible blogger! I have been so busy for the last three weeks that I haven't had the time to blog. I was on vacation August 1 - 10 and then so busy catching up at work. We had a great time on vacation at Emerald Isle that I hated to see it end. We spent the first few days with my mom, brother and sister-in-law and then met Eric's family to close out the week.

The biggest news is that I'M PREGNANT! I still can't believe it's true! How have we been so blessed! I found out on July 27th but the line was so super faint that I didn't tell Eric or my mom (she was in town at the time.) The next day I tested again and sure enough, the line was there! So almost 2 months after our miscarriage we have the opportunity to become parents again. God is good!

I waited to call the doctor until August 1 because I didn't want to go in too early. I went in for blood work and my beta was 153. The nurse said that was a good number and that I would need to repeat the test in 2 days. Well, since I was leaving for vacation the next day, I wasn't able to do that. I was fine with it. Those tests are only for reassurance anyway. The did put be on Progesterone supplements just to be on the safe side. I went back in when I got back from the beach and my numbers were 9659, which was great. I was a little worried because had I not taken a test, I would never have known I was pregnant. I felt no different whatsoever, until 5 weeks hit. Then the morning sickness began and it hasn't let up.

The sickness is very different from last time so I'm hoping that is a good sign. I asked for a prescription of Zofran yesterday, which helps some. The insurance will only cover 26 pills per

month (What??!) so I'm trying not to take them unless I really can't take it.

Today I am 6 weeks 2 days and am looking forward to my ultrasound on August 22. I will be 7w1d then and we should see a heartbeat. The nurse said they wanted to bring me in around 6 weeks but I asked them to push that out some. I didn't want there to be any uncertainty this time around.

I am due on April 8th (Easter Sunday!), which is going to be very close to Jack's birthday. That should be interesting :) I've posted some pictures below of my tests. The first one is the second test and next to it is the third. Light right?

Here we go again! :)

Consumed

I had to write today. I feel like I am consumed with this journey. I wish I could focus on something else, anything else. I have to force myself to work. The weekends and evenings are much easier because I have my family there to focus on. At work it is much easier for my mind to wander.

I tested this morning. I know, I've been here before and knew it would be negative but there is a slim chance. I want this so bad it hurts. This is really the ultimate test of patience and learning to let God handle things that you have no control over.

My mom is in town and a great distraction! We are going to the beach for my birthday, which will be awesome. I can't wait to get away. I'm hoping for another wonderful birthday present and hope that I can have a good time even if the test is negative. I'm thinking I will.

I am crazy

I'm just going to go ahead and throw that out there so you all know that I know I am crazy. I am 2 days into my 2ww (2 week wait) and I am already feeling the obsessiveness start to take over. I feel like I've been through a lot over the last two months, yet I feel like I was just here!

I really hope I get another wonderful birthday present like I did when I found out about Jack on July 31, 2008. My mom is coming to visit on July 25th so that will be a great distraction. If I am pregnant, the due date and Jack's birthday could be less than a week apart. Yikes!

Ok, cart before the horse here.

Finally Back to Normal! (For real!)

I had my last blood draw last Friday (July 15). My beta (hcg, hormone level) was 2.2 and the nurse said I am basically normal. Yay! It took 6 weeks but I am finally done and back to normal. I feel like I can move on now and that is what I intend to do!

Stay tuned for more updates...hopefully more positive ones :)

To start off the holiday weekend, I visited by good friends at the doctor’s office to have more blood work done. My hcg is down to 22, which is great! Hopefully this next appointment on the 15^th will be the last. It really takes forever for this hormone to go away.

The Fourth of July weekend was really great. Saturday we participated in a community yard sale and did pretty well. I was surprised! Sunday after church and lunch, Jack and I went to a cookout at Grace’s parent’s house and had a great time. Jack loved going in and out of the window to get to the screened-in porch. J He did that A LOT. Monday we went to the Kernersville 4^th of July parade with some friends and at the end of the parade Jack saw THOMAS! He was so excited. J Then after that we went to Uncle Pete and Aunt Brenda’s house for a family cookout. Jack loved going down the pool slide and fishing.

All in all, the weekend could only have been better if Eric could have joined us. He has his last CPA exam tomorrow and had to spend the weekend studying L