Consumed

I had to write today. I feel like I am consumed with this journey. I wish I could focus on something else, anything else. I have to force myself to work. The weekends and evenings are much easier because I have my family there to focus on. At work it is much easier for my mind to wander.

I tested this morning. I know, I've been here before and knew it would be negative but there is a slim chance. I want this so bad it hurts. This is really the ultimate test of patience and learning to let God handle things that you have no control over.

My mom is in town and a great distraction! We are going to the beach for my birthday, which will be awesome. I can't wait to get away. I'm hoping for another wonderful birthday present and hope that I can have a good time even if the test is negative. I'm thinking I will.

I am crazy

I'm just going to go ahead and throw that out there so you all know that I know I am crazy. I am 2 days into my 2ww (2 week wait) and I am already feeling the obsessiveness start to take over. I feel like I've been through a lot over the last two months, yet I feel like I was just here!

I really hope I get another wonderful birthday present like I did when I found out about Jack on July 31, 2008. My mom is coming to visit on July 25th so that will be a great distraction. If I am pregnant, the due date and Jack's birthday could be less than a week apart. Yikes!

Ok, cart before the horse here.

Finally Back to Normal! (For real!)

I had my last blood draw last Friday (July 15). My beta (hcg, hormone level) was 2.2 and the nurse said I am basically normal. Yay! It took 6 weeks but I am finally done and back to normal. I feel like I can move on now and that is what I intend to do!

Stay tuned for more updates...hopefully more positive ones :)

To start off the holiday weekend, I visited by good friends at the doctor’s office to have more blood work done. My hcg is down to 22, which is great! Hopefully this next appointment on the 15^th will be the last. It really takes forever for this hormone to go away.

The Fourth of July weekend was really great. Saturday we participated in a community yard sale and did pretty well. I was surprised! Sunday after church and lunch, Jack and I went to a cookout at Grace’s parent’s house and had a great time. Jack loved going in and out of the window to get to the screened-in porch. J He did that A LOT. Monday we went to the Kernersville 4^th of July parade with some friends and at the end of the parade Jack saw THOMAS! He was so excited. J Then after that we went to Uncle Pete and Aunt Brenda’s house for a family cookout. Jack loved going down the pool slide and fishing.

All in all, the weekend could only have been better if Eric could have joined us. He has his last CPA exam tomorrow and had to spend the weekend studying L