There is not much new to report but I thought I would check in. Most days I feel pretty good but there are some, today is one, where I'm not feeling that well. I'm not sure if anything triggers it. I don't think so and I have heard where some women are ok for a few weeks and then in the middle late part of the pregnancy they begin to feel sick again. Blech.
This is a blog about the journey we are on to complete our family. We want more children and have found that it is not as easy as we once thought.
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
21w 3d
There is not much new to report but I thought I would check in. Most days I feel pretty good but there are some, today is one, where I'm not feeling that well. I'm not sure if anything triggers it. I don't think so and I have heard where some women are ok for a few weeks and then in the middle late part of the pregnancy they begin to feel sick again. Blech.
Friday, November 11, 2011
Well, I just couldn't do it. 18w6d
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Exciting Week! 18w 5d
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
17w 3day Appointment
I went into this appointment thinking that I probably hadn't gained much weight because I really haven't been eating much more than I normally do. I really haven't been all that hungry. I was very wrong. I gained 6 pounds in ONE month! I just don't know what to say. The doctor said it was ok but that he didn't want me to gain 6 pounds every month. I'm hoping it was my breakfast bar and coffee (decaf) that I had before the appointment. I'm trying not to worry about it but have started watching what I eat.
Monday, October 31, 2011
Eventful week
What a week we had last week. I was home with Jack while Eric's parent re-cooperated from an upper respiratory cold. I was with him Monday - Thursday am. It was so nice being there with him and I was able to get some work done while he played. Tuesday night we were up from 2-5am because he had a bad dream (I think) and then we were up just as long Wed night/Thurs am.
Monday, October 17, 2011
I think the morning sickness is gone! 15w2d
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Not feeling exactly like I thought I would be
Throwing up in the car, on the way to work is not exactly how I thought I would be feeling at 14w4d. Fortunately I had a grocery bag. I have been off of the prometrium for two weeks now and this week has been pretty bad. I was feeling much better by 13 1/2 weeks with Jack. Could this mean a girl? I stopped taking my B6/Unisom cocktail for the nausea because I WAS feeling better. It looks like I'm going to have to start taking that again. At least I know this will eventually end - I just hope it ends way sooner than delivery day.
Thursday, September 29, 2011
NT Scan went great! 12w5d
We got to see our precious baby today! I can't believe how much it has grown in a week. :) I've posted pictures below of his/her hand and profile. We saw him moving around more and saw his hands in front if his face. The tests went great and there is a very slim chance of the baby having Down Syndrome or Trisomy 18, which is a chromosomal defect.
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
NT Scan 11w6d
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
First OB appointment 11w3d
Monday, September 19, 2011
Hearing the Heart beat 10w 4d
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Feeling GREAT today! 9w5d
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Needed a little reasurrance
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Cannot get enough! 8w3d
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
I am so relieved!
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Oh my goodness...so sick
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Wow what an amazing month!
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Consumed
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
I am crazy
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Finally Back to Normal! (For real!)
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
To start off the holiday weekend, I visited by good friends at the doctor’s office to have more blood work done. My hcg is down to 22, which is great! Hopefully this next appointment on the 15th will be the last. It really takes forever for this hormone to go away.
The Fourth of July weekend was really great. Saturday we participated in a community yard sale and did pretty well. I was surprised! Sunday after church and lunch, Jack and I went to a cookout at Grace’s parent’s house and had a great time. Jack loved going in and out of the window to get to the screened-in porch. J He did that A LOT. Monday we went to the Kernersville 4th of July parade with some friends and at the end of the parade Jack saw THOMAS! He was so excited. J Then after that we went to Uncle Pete and Aunt Brenda’s house for a family cookout. Jack loved going down the pool slide and fishing.
All in all, the weekend could only have been better if Eric could have joined us. He has his last CPA exam tomorrow and had to spend the weekend studying L
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Things are looking up
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Results of the blood draw
I'm feeling pretty good. Back to normal, I think. I just want to get this whole thing behind me.
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Hormones are no joke!
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Feeling down today
I keep remembering the ultrasound when we saw the baby's heartbeat. I wish I could go back to that day and appreciate the miracle that moment was. Knowing the outcome, Eric and I were fortunate to have seen it because soon after, the heart stopped. At the time of the ultrasound, I knew something was wrong because the baby wasn't growing as it should and the heartbeat was not as fast as it should have been and that was all I could focus on. Eric was happy because it was his understanding that once you see a heartbeat, the risk of miscarrying goes down to 5%. I wish I could have soaked in that moment a little longer without the sadness and worry. Because we saw the heartbeat, the tech gave us the ultrasound photo and that is something I will keep and treasure.
This whole process is so heartbreaking and unfair. I know we should not question God's plan and I know this is for the best but it still hurts. It is a comfort to know that our two angels are in heaven playing together and looking forward to the day when they will have the chance to meet their mommy and daddy. I can't wait for that day either.
Monday, June 6, 2011
God is Good!
Going into the weekend, I was very nervous about what would happen when I miscarried. I was armed with pain killers and ready whenever the pain would begin. Saturday Jack and I played at the park and took a nap together and played in the sprinkler. It was a pretty good day. I was feeling some discomfort but nothing too bad. We had dinner and I was hurting a little bit more and took one pain pill. I was getting very nervous at this point. Eric and I played old Nintendo games and had a good night (Not the best anniversary but it wasn’t as bad as I was expecting it to be). By the time we went to bed, the worst was over. I could not believe it. The pain was not even a tenth of what it was the first time. I was praising God! He has really answered my prayers and carried me through this process. Eric and I were both amazed.
This morning (Monday) I had an ultrasound and saw the doctor. He said everything was great and there was no reason why we could try again in a month. He did tell me that they will start me on progesterone supplements to be safe and test me for some obscure things that could cause a problem. He said that because I had Jack in between two miscarriages, I was not at a higher risk for another.
I think I am going to keep this blog for the next baby. It will remind me of the peace I’ve been given and the lessons I’ve learned going through this process. Even though God did not answer the prayers to save my baby, I know that he has something even better in store for my family and I am looking forward to the future.
Friday, June 3, 2011
Another Angel Baby in Heaven
Wednesday, June 1, I started spotting and called the Doctor. I knew the news would not be good. This is exactly what happened with the first pregnancy at exactly the same time. They didn’t call back so I decided to pick up Eric and go to the office in case they could fit me in. There was no way I would wait until the next day. I talked to the receptionist and they fit me in for an ultrasound at the end of the day.
We go into the room and the ultrasound tech begins. We can see the baby but no heartbeat can be found. After she takes some measurements (baby measures 6weeks) and we are finished, she takes us into a room to wait for the doctor. At this point, I have prepared myself for this moment and am not as devastated as I was the first time. I can’t explain it except to say that God granted me and Eric peace that only he can give. We know that there was something wrong with this baby and we will have to wait a little while before we can meet him/her. I now know what to expect and I know that having another baby is possible. After all Jack was the result of a miscarriage.
The doctor says we can try again right away so hopefully in a few months we will start another journey. For now, I am thankful for the beautiful son I have and amazing husband that loves me. We will celebrate our 6th wedding anniversary on Saturday and he has been my rock over the last six years. I am truly blessed.
Friday, May 27, 2011
Prayers Needed
I actually wasn’t too nervous going into the appointment yesterday. I’ve been feeling nauseated, super tired, very hungry, and all seemed well. The tech began the ultrasound and after a few seconds we saw our little baby. I wasn’t able to see a strong flicker of the heart like I could with Jack but I did see something. The tech told us there was a flicker and the heartbeat measured at 100bpm. When she measured the baby, it was only measuring 6weeks 1day. In 2 weeks time, it only grew one week in size. I felt like our nightmare in 2008 was happening again. What are the chances that we could miscarry again?!
I asked the tech if 100 was good and she said it could have just started beating and that I’ll probably have to come in again to have it checked. We were given a picture of our baby and Eric and I headed to the red chairs to wait for Dr. Taavon. Soon we were called into his office. He told us that anything under 100 was low for a fetal heartbeat and that he would like for us to come in next Thursday for a follow-up ultrasound to make sure everything was ok. He said he is not as concerned with the size of the baby because ultrasounds can be off by 3-5 days, which is why he wants to check the heartbeat again. He also said there is cause for concern but not alarm. One thing that makes me feel a bit better is that Jack’s heartbeat at 6weeks 3days was 107 – not too far off.
Right now I am just sad and scared. I am trying to be positive but I just have this feeling that everything is not ok. I know that God has a plan and is in complete control and I need to give all of this to him. All I can do is pray and I ask those who might be reading this to pray for the baby – that the heartbeat increases and the growth speeds up, peace for me and Eric to trust in the Lord no matter what happens, and the strength to get through this.
Monday, May 23, 2011
Sick! 6w4d
Yesterday I noticed that my t-shirt was tight around my stomach and I look down and see a belly! I know that there is no way this could be from the baby because it is the size of a sesame seed so it has to be bloat. Even still, my belly didn't poke out this far with Jack! I guess it's true that you show sooner with the second baby even if it is just bloating. I can't say I mind though. :)
I've posted a picture of me with Jack at 7 weeks and then me with #2 at 6 1/2. What a difference! I am in red pants with the Jack picture.